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So what’s with the dream world and buffer zone?
Ok, so some people who have read my book Shadowhunter asked how I came up with the idea of the buffer zone around our world, and interacting with the “other side” through dreams. Not to mention life continuing after death.
Well, I have often seen precognitive dreams and even received information on how to do things – information I did not have read about before.
For example if I see a dream where fish or seals are swimming in the air, I know someone is about to make their transition from this physical existence. I have seen beforehand events that happened the next day – the exact place and event, even though everything was a mirror image.
And once I had a dream where I walked in a forest and came to a little hut. I knocked on the door and an old man opened it. He welcomed me in and said he would now show me a special painting technique. He showed me a black and white painting he had made, and then how he layered thin layers of color on top of it, bringing it to life with vibrant colors. I tried to technique the next morning with a horse painting I was working on in acrylics, and to my surprise it worked perfectly. Only later did I learn the very technique is called the grisaille- technique. I had never heard of it before.
People who have died often come to my dreams, and the fun thing is that they are younger and more vibrant every time they appear. The encounters are brief, but I always feel good after such a dream.
Embed from Getty ImagesWhen I was younger I studied interpretation and translation at the university, and by accident ended up doing interpretation in a rather surprising environment – an English medium had arrived to where I live, to give a public demonstration, and the lady who was supposed to interpret for her caught the flu and had no voice. Someone knew me and asked if I could help them out. Well, I have to admit I was pretty curious about mediums, and so I agreed.
I was expecting a dim-lit room with a skull and a crystal ball and the medium wearing a turban, but instead I found myself in an ordinary lecture theater with a completely normal looking lady and ordinary people filling every seat. The medium began to talk and deliver messages from the “dead”, and I was totally surprised on how exact the messages were.
I interpreted for her and other mediums as well a few times, and they did not fish for information. Actually they told the clients were not to tell them anything, it was their job to deliver the information. I also got a message from someone I had known and the medium told the exact way this person had died. There was no way she could have known this beforehand. And all the messages from the “other side” were loving and encouraging, never dictating what the one still living here was supposed to do with their lives. The messages emphasized the fact that we are to make out own decisions in life. And that life continues after the doorway of death, and those who have already walked through it are still obseving our lives, and loving us.
So, these kind of experiences from my own life had an impact on Shadowhunter when the story began to form in my mind years back, and so this story has a buffer zone where the dearly departed can come to interact with us, and where dreams can be used for these interactions. The actual visiting this buffer zone in physical form is all imagination, though.
Why I Write
How can I explain a passion I’ve always had?
I have been writing stories since I learned to write, and I intend to continue as long as I can hold the pen / tap the keyboard (or whatever form writing takes in the future).
My fascination for books and writing rises from how a well written story takes the reader to another world, gives them a safe environment to feel deep emotions, and maybe makes them look at the world around them with new eyes.
And written words leave space for the imagination to fill in the gaps – the story can be different at each reading.
Also it is amazing how the written word connects people across the ages… In my Egyptology studies I read texts that were thousands of years old, and still felt a connection to the writers – their hopes, dreams, beliefs and emotions. Writing must be the most magical thing the human kind ever invented… I want that magic to continue.
Maybe one day in the future someone reads my books, finds my values and thoughts hidden in the story, and feels a connection to me. That magical touch or words and emotions through the years between people who have never met.
Yes, that is why I write.
New Year’s Letter
While visiting friends during Christmas, I was shown a letter written to them. It had been sent by a family who had been living next door to them, but had moved away several years ago. They have the habit of writing a letter to their friends once a year around Christmastime, telling all the things that had happened to them during the year.
The events themselves weren’t the thing that caught my attention. It was the tone of the letter. All the things that had happened, even the challenging ones were written with a positive angle. Take for example unemployment of the father – the family found a positive take on it in the fact that he knows his way around the kitchen and now they have delicious meals waiting for them when they come home.
I know people who find this kind of attitude extremely irritating. They don’t find it “realistic” – surely you’d need to face the fact that life sucks and a Pollyannaish attitude is plain stupid.
But is it? The fact that someone is actively trying to find positive things in life tells me that is a person who is not giving up. Who falls and rises up again. And who can spread a little positivity around them as well (well, the irritable people won’t accept the positivity, but that’s their problem).
What if you tried this? Sit down and write a list of the main events in your life this year. Then write a few sentences what was good about the events. From your perspective alone, no need to please anyone else. What made you stronger? What made you happy? Remember that if you met with a circumstance you did not like, even that had a good aspect up its sleeve – it made it clearer to you what you DO like. After that it is your job to steer your life towards the wanted thing.
Obviously you cannot bring back a job you lost. Or a person who died. But you may decide to build up a self esteem that doesn’t depend on your title. You can concentrate on taking care of your remaining personal relationships, and building new ones.
So write that New Year’s letter. If you don’t want to send it to anyone, put it away in an envelope and read it a year from now when you are writing your next letter. See how things developed in a year’s time. Think about how you have been changed in the process.
Happy New Year, everyone! Embed from Getty Images
Rejection Letters
As I am publishing my first ebook as an indie, it has been interesting to follow the discussion indie vs traditional publishing.
There have been researches that show ebooks are losing their popularity, and when you have a closer look at the subject, you find out the non-ISBN ebooks have not been counted in the sales numbers at all. (It is not necessary to have your own ISBN if you publish with for example Amazon and Smashwords)
The world is changing regarding self- and traditional publishing. I am sure both have their role in the world of reading, and neither should mock the other. Traditional publishing houses might expand their services to the direction of assisted publishing – hire their expertise to help wannabe indie authors, even if the publishing house itself isn’t publishing the book.
Also good indie e-books may be noticed by traditional print-publishers, which may lead to contracts to authors (though not all such offers are beneficial to the authors).
Embed from Getty ImagesHere is an interesting article regarding rejections by the publishing houses. Made me chuckle – I once received a rejection letter years back. Now I am not saying my writing was the best, as I was in my twenties, but on hindsight the comment of the publishing house was funny.
You see my book told about a school for wizards and witches. The rejection letter stated there was no market for that subject line. Not long after Harry Potter appeared (and mind you – I am not comparing myself to JK Rowling as an author). Goes to prove the publishing houses themselves often don’t know what will sell and what not.
But let us hope the cooperation between independent authors and publishing houses will move from opposition to cooperation.
Some Holiday Research

A week’s holiday was in order. Hubby and I decided to go sit by a pool in a sunnier climate for a week. The idea was to do nothing and get rid of work-related stress. Only eat, drink and be merry.
Guess twice did I succeed…? Well, a writer’s mind never stops working on the plot of the next novel. Which will be the second part of the Nephilim Quest series. And of course it happens in ancient Egypt (at least half of it does, as the story moves on different time levels). And Amarna is the place of choice in the second book. I admit it – I’m hooked to the New Kingdom period, and the royal house of Amenhotep III and Akhenaten (and yes, Tutanhkamon).
You would expect me to know my facts after studying Egyptology for five years, but it seems the more I read about the period, the more I realize I need to research more. Which is what I spent my holiday doing – reading about Amarna, making detailed notes (notice the little notebook), knowing I have several more books waiting at home on the same subject. Well, as I am the merriest when I can read and write, I had good fun.
And I got an idea for another book completely, not a fantasy novel, and thought the plot through when I wasn’t researching for Nephilim Quest. Or rather let my mind develop in on its own when I put down the Amarna research for short moments. (The good point about siesta is that you are relaxed and lazy enough to let your mind wander) Explained it all to hubby dearest when we were sitting at a romantic little restaurant. His smile widened as I explained the whole thing and when I finally realized how amused he looked, I asked the famous “What?” question.
Apparently it was fun to watch me talking about ancient Egypt (don’t ever get me started by asking something about the subject or you’ll have a full lecture). He asked when will I start lecturing about Egypt to others. Don’t have the time, I answered – with a full time job and writing and painting I have enough on my plate. Let’s return to the subject if I ever can survive with the income from my writing and can use my days as I please.
Now comes the question of where to get the time to write all those stories… Anyone have any spare time to sell?
Writing Is Reading?
Hmm… I was complaining the other day (oh well, most of the days) that I don’t have time enough to read stories. At the same time I was formatting my story ready for publication. Going through those 180.000 words I thought about my writing process.
Embed from Getty ImagesAnd really – I had made plans on how the story would develop. I’m very good at making plans. Just ask my hubby dearest who is shaking his head at all my calendars – both paper- and digital ones. Well you gotta have a calendar where you plan your writing schedule – your work calendar. And then a smaller calendar for the handbag you can dig out to check your everyday events (the handbag in question is actually big enough to accommodate the bigger work calendar as well, but that’s beside the point…)
I learned to plan every day beforehand when I had to write all those essays during my Egyptology studies. When I planned everything in my calendar the first day of the new semester, I always knew what I needed to do each week and day. Lessened stress considerably.
So plans, careful plans, were made to write Nephilim Quest 1: Shadowhunter. Only the story had other plans. It took over. New characters appeared and much to my surprise seemed to have a will of their own. When I really got into the flow of writing, my fingers typed and I just stared at the computer screen, wondering what was being written. It was like I was reading a book while it was being written. And oddly enough when I read the story through, I noticed my subconscious had tied the story nicely together. (Ok, well, nicely… The editing part took over a year)
So who am I to complain I don’t have time enough for novels? I was reading a story while my fingers typed in on the screen. Quite a wonderful experience, really, to see how a story pours out and onto the “paper”.
And now I need to take that work calendar and start planning the next story in the series… I do try to keep up with my plans, but most likely I’ll end up reading a story that writes itself through me. Still – for a short while I can pretend I have it all planned beforehand, before I start the actual writing again…
The first chapters of Nephiilm Quest Book One: Shadowhunter can be read here.
If you have already read the previous chapters, you can continue with Chapter 2. Kitty Is Gone
And finally, the book is ready
I had a plot in my mind for years – one I wanted to write into a book. I started many times, but somehow never got any further than a few chapters. I could not understand why the story would not come out.
On hindsight I understand better. My father had suffered from cancer for years, and when his condition started to worsen, waiting for the inevitable simply stole so much of my creative energies I could not get the story out.
After he passed away, and the funeral was over, it was like floodgates had opened. I was in the process of writing my final essay for my Diploma in Egyptology studies (Middle Kingdom Fortresses in Nubia) and yet, at the same time, I wrote the whole story in four months. 150.000 words. It was like I had tapped to a never-ending energy source.
I then edited the story on my own for eight months (I was in no hurry to publish it). And after the first round of edits I knew I needed a real editor to work on my story – I wanted it to be the best it could be. I found Miriam Bibby, who had studied Egyptology at the University of Manchester as well, and who is a published author (for example her Mistress Meg stories are such a pleasure to read if you like stories set in the Elizabethan age).
She made me restructure the book, correct my writing, introduce some characters earlier into the story (which meant I needed to write more chapters). Miriam did not let me go easy, and I am grateful for that. I did not perhaps fully realize how important an editor is until Miriam began to work on the story. Wow. Thank you so much, Miriam!
And then came the question of the cover… I had joined ALLi (the Alliance of Independent Authors), and one other member recommended Avalon Graphics to me. I wrote to Cathy Helms, and was impressed at how quick she answered – and delivered three wonderful suggestions for the book cover. Seriously – I could not decide on the cover, and had to ask my husband and Miriam for advice. They both liked this version the best, so here it is. And you bet I’ll have the covers of the other books in the series made by you, Cathy!
I shall publish this as an ebook in January 2016 (Amazon, Smashwords, iBooks, Kobo, Nook…). And as this is my first published novel, I want to give people a chance to check out my writing before making any decision on buying it. For that purpose I shall be publishing the first chapters in small bits on Wattpad and also here on my blog. Check out the tab that says “Books”, you will find “Nephilim Quest” underneath it and then the chapters.
And here’s a limited time offer: you get this book for free in return for a review on its publication date.
The reason I’m asking for reviews: reader reviews are the lifeblood of any author’s career. For someone writing after a 9-5 job, like myself, getting reviews means I can actually sell a few copies from time to time – which is always a nice bonus 🙂
So every review means a lot to me.
Click the picture below to leave your contact information and I will send you a link to the book in January 2016.
Writer’s Helpers
I came across these photos from the time I was working on my essays as part of my studies for the Certificate in Egyptology at the University of Manchester. (I continued the studies and now hold the Diploma in Egyptology, which took five years of studies that basically dominated my free time so I did not even have time to read novels). Our own apartment was being renovated and we lived for two months in a small one bedroom apartment, which was crammed by some of our furniture, hubby and me, and the three felines who are very much aware of the fact cats were worshipped in ancient Egypt.
I suppose if there is any writer out there with cats, this is a rather familiar experience to them. Kitties seem to be a like little children – if Mommy tries to concentrate on anything else but them, they make it known what the priorities are. Despite the intervention I did manage to finish the essay (it was about the rules of ancient Egyptian two-dimensional tomb art during the Old Kingdom).
Obviously the rhythmic tapping of my fingers was rather relaxing, as you can see from the second photo…
This still continues if I take a book or my iPad to my hands with the intention of reading or doing research. It seems a book is an invitation to the cat to hop on your lap…
Every place is a good place for reading
Couldn’t resist posting this… We were at our summer cottage (definitely not a luxurious villa, but a place to rest your mind nevertheless, in the middle of the never-ending process of fixing this and that and the other thing…), and as usual, it was time to heat the sauna. I gathered twigs and used these together with some newspaper to get the fire going, then added some firewood. It is so relaxing to watch the flames… And of course – read. At this point the door to the sauna is open, so it is not hot inside yet (only when the water gets warm enough on the stove, it is time to close the door, and after that the sauna is soon ready for bathing.).
So, there I sat in front of the fire, and hubby took a photo of me and my iPad. I was searching for the ebook I am currently reading. The adventures of Master Shardlake (Sovereign, by C.J. Sansom) to be exact. Normally I have a paperback in my hands at summer cottage – safer to walk in the pier, sea shore and forest with a physical book, but this time I had downloaded the book to my iPad.
I practiced using a photo editing app I had downloaded, using this photo, and after a while I realized it looked so… well, funny… that I decided to post it here. To prove that a real bookworm can and will read in the sauna as well 😀 There’s no stopping the serious reader! Come rain or shine, frost or sauna, we just keep on reading…
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